
Jonathan Harker's Journal Continued
I awoke in my own bed. If it be that I had not dreamt, the Count must have
carried me here. I tried to satisfy myself on the subject, but could not arrive
at any unquestionable result. To be sure, there were certain small evidences,
such as that my clothes were folded and laid by in a manner which was not my
habit. My watch was still unwound, and I am rigorously accustomed to wind it
the last thing before going to bed, and many such details. But these things are
no proof, for they may have been evidences that my mind was not as usual, and,
for some cause or another, I had certainly been much upset. I must watch for
proof. Of one thing I am glad. If it was that the Count carried me here and undressed
me, he must have been hurried in his task, for my pockets are intact. I am sure
this diary would have been a mystery to him which he would not have brooked. He
would have taken or destroyed it. As I look round this room, although it has
been to me so full of fear, it is now a sort of sanctuary, for nothing can be
more dreadful than those awful women, who were, who are, waiting to suck my
blood.
18 May.--I have been down to look at that room again in daylight, for I must
know the truth. When I got to the doorway at the top of the stairs I found it
closed. It had been so forcibly driven against the jamb that part of the
woodwork was splintered. I could see that the bolt of the lock had not been
shot, but the door is fastened from the inside. I fear it was no dream, and
must act on this surmise.
19 May.--I am surely in the toils. Last night the Count asked me in the
sauvest tones to write three letters, one saying that my work here was nearly
done, and that I should start for home within a few days, another that I was
starting on the next morning from the time of the letter, and the third that I
had left the castle and arrived at Bistritz. I would fain have rebelled, but
felt that in the present state of things it would be madness to quarrel openly
with the Count whilst I am so absolutely in his power. And to refuse would be
to excite his suspicion and to arouse his anger. He knows that I know too much,
and that I must not live, lest I be dangerous to him. My only chance is to
prolong my opportunities. Something may occur which will give ma a chance to
escape. I saw in his eyes something of that gathering wrath which was manifest
when he hurled that fair woman from him. He explained to me that posts were few
and uncertain, and that my writing now would ensure ease of mind to my friends.
And he assured me with so much impressiveness that he would countermand the
later letters, which would be held over at Bistritz until due time in case
chance would admit of my prolonging my stay, that to oppose him would have been
to create new suspicion. I therefore pretended to fall in with his views, and
asked him what dates I should put on the letters.
He calculated a minute, and then said, "The first should be June 12,the
second June 19,and the third June 29."
I know now the span of my life. God help me!
28 May.--There is a chance of escape, or at any rate of being able to send
word home. A band of Szgany have come to the castle, and are encamped in the
courtyard. These are gipsies. I have notes of them in my book. They are
peculiar to this part of the world, though allied to the ordinary gipsies all
the world over. There are thousands of them in Hungary
and Transylvania, who are almost outside all
law. They attach themselves as a rule to some great noble or boyar, and call
themselves by his name. They are fearless and without religion, save
superstition, and they talk only their own varieties of the Romany tongue.
I shall write some letters home, and shall try to get them to have them
posted. I have already spoken to them through my window to begin
acquaintanceship. They took their hats off and made obeisance and many signs,
which however, I could not understand any more than I could their spoken
language . . .