The air seems full of specks, floating and circling in the draught from the
window, and the lights burn blue and dim. What am I to do? God shield me from
harm this night! I shall hide this paper in my breast, where they shall find it
when they come to lay me out. My dear mother gone! It is time that I go too.
Goodbye, dear Arthur, if I should not survive this night. God keep you, dear,
and God help me!

DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
18 September.--I drove at once to Hillingham and arrived early. Keeping my
cab at the gate, I went up the avenue alone. I knocked gently and rang as
quietly as possible, for I feared to disturb Lucy or her mother, and hoped to
only bring a servant to the door. After a while, finding no response, I knocked
and rang again, still no answer. I cursed the laziness of the servants that
they should lie abed at such an hour, for it was now ten o'clock, and so rang
and knocked again, but more impatiently, but still without response. Hitherto I
had blamed only the servants, but now a terrible fear began to assail me. Was
this desolation but another link in the chain of doom which seemed drawing
tight round us? Was it indeed a house of death to which I had come, too late? I
know that minutes, even seconds of delay, might mean hours of danger to Lucy,
if she had had again one of those frightful relapses, and I went round the
house to try if I could find by chance an entry anywhere. I could find no means
of ingress. Every window and door was fastened and locked, and I returned
baffled to the porch. As I did so, I heard the rapid pit-pat of a swiftly
driven horse's feet. They stopped at the gate, and a few seconds later I met
Van Helsing running up the avenue. When he saw me, he gasped out, "Then it
was you, and just arrived. How is she? Are we too late? Did you not get my telegram?"
I answered as quickly and coherently as I could that I had only got his
telegram early in the morning, and had not a minute in coming here, and that I
could not make any one in the house hear me. He paused and raised his hat as he
said solemnly, "Then I fear we are too late. God's will be done!"
With his usual recuperative energy, he went on, "Come. If there be no
way open to get in, we must make one. Time is all in all to us now."
We went round to the back of the house, where there was a kitchen window.
The Professor took a small surgical saw from his case, and handing it to me,
pointed to the iron bars which guarded the window. I attacked them at once and
had very soon cut through three of them. Then with a long, thin knife we pushed
back the fastening of the sashes and opened the window. I helped the Professor
in, and followed him. There was no one in the kitchen or in the servants'
rooms, which were close at hand. We tried all the rooms as we went along, and
in the dining room, dimly lit by rays of light through the shutters, found four
servant women lying on the floor. There was no need to think them dead, for
their stertorous breathing and the acrid smell of laudanum in the room left no
doubt as to their condition.
Van Helsing and I looked at each other, and as we moved away he said,
"We can attend to them later."Then we ascended to Lucy's room. For an
instant or two we paused at the door to listen, but there was no sound that we
could hear. With white faces and trembling hands, we opened the door gently,
and entered the room.
How shall I describe what we saw? On the bed lay two women,
Lucy and her mother. The latter lay farthest in, and she was covered with a
white sheet, the edge of which had been blown back by the drought through the
broken window, showing the drawn, white, face, with a look of terror fixed upon
it. By her side lay Lucy, with face white and still more drawn. The flowers
which had been round her neck we found upon her mother's bosom, and her throat
was bare, showing the two little wounds which we had noticed before, but
looking horribly white and mangled. Without a word